It's becoming very cold here in KC, it's already been below 0 a couple of times, the leaves have fallen and even some snow!
It warms my little heart to know that I will be in NZ summer during the coldest month of the KC year.
In other news, the Lord totally provided for my ticket home - from a person I don't even know! My mum meet someone at her retreat who wanted to give me money after hearing about what I do here. The Lord is my Provider!
Events of recent weeks has caused my to be sober once again in the times that we are living in and I want to give myself to the knowledge of God, not just to know information but to know his heart.
My interns are wonderful, and just thinking about them makes me smile, I don't think I've ever had to answer so many questions but they all have such hungry hearts for truth.
that's me
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Another attempt at consistancy
I would like to think for the most part that I am consistent. With this blog I am consistent in not writing very much, so I guess that's better than nothing.
Fire in the night started it's Fall track 10 days ago, 80 interns, 5 young women who I am responsible for for the next three months. One thing I like about working with people is it means the same job is never the same. I find that I led so differently track to track depending on the women in my apartment and where think people are at. You don't led an 18 year old and a 30 year old the same way.
Fall is here, and I do like fall, but when I think about it I actually like all the seasons for different reasons.
My sister Jo had her first baby, James and I am so excited, I think it's amazing that in a moment a women becomes a mother, I think it's so cool.
Speaking of cool, I'm going home for a visit in late January. I'm looking forward to it and it makes living in another country easier when you know you get to go home sometimes.
That's all
Fire in the night started it's Fall track 10 days ago, 80 interns, 5 young women who I am responsible for for the next three months. One thing I like about working with people is it means the same job is never the same. I find that I led so differently track to track depending on the women in my apartment and where think people are at. You don't led an 18 year old and a 30 year old the same way.
Fall is here, and I do like fall, but when I think about it I actually like all the seasons for different reasons.
My sister Jo had her first baby, James and I am so excited, I think it's amazing that in a moment a women becomes a mother, I think it's so cool.
Speaking of cool, I'm going home for a visit in late January. I'm looking forward to it and it makes living in another country easier when you know you get to go home sometimes.
That's all
Friday, August 1, 2008
Sustained by the Word
one of my favourite passages to prayer lead is "Kiss me with the kisses of your Word". I like it because it's simple, I'm asking God to speak to me, and because he's given the Word it's as simple as asking for his Word become alive to me.
I truly believe that we are sustained in our spiritual walk with the Word of God, the written Word and that which the Lord speaks to our hearts. I believe it because it says in Hebrews 1 that he sustains all things by the power of his Word and I'm pretty sure that I am included in the all things.
Tonight I experienced what I know to be true. I went into a 2am worship with the Word set very tired, it's been a long week for me with spending 23 hours with an intern who was sick in hospital, and then have a relational wholeness seminar with fire in the night; that makes for a long week, add in the fasting element I have felt my weakness and human frailty the last few days.
Then we started to sing, about delighting in his Word, about him drawing us to himself by giving us a revelation of his love (which for me personally means giving me a revelation of the cross). I left the platform at 4am feeling renewed, feeling like I wanted to live righteously, feeling like I really could fast another 8 days. And why? The simplicity of singing and speaking the Word back to God. Truly the Word is living and active, it truly is our daily bread. I am so thankful that I get to prayer lead worship with the Word sets because it means I get to meditate with a bunch of other people on the Word and get my heart cleansed and my mind renewed. Plus I get to bring joy to the Lord because he loves my voice, plus I get to stand in the gap for a generation that do not know him.
All that to say, I like my job and I love the Word.
I truly believe that we are sustained in our spiritual walk with the Word of God, the written Word and that which the Lord speaks to our hearts. I believe it because it says in Hebrews 1 that he sustains all things by the power of his Word and I'm pretty sure that I am included in the all things.
Tonight I experienced what I know to be true. I went into a 2am worship with the Word set very tired, it's been a long week for me with spending 23 hours with an intern who was sick in hospital, and then have a relational wholeness seminar with fire in the night; that makes for a long week, add in the fasting element I have felt my weakness and human frailty the last few days.
Then we started to sing, about delighting in his Word, about him drawing us to himself by giving us a revelation of his love (which for me personally means giving me a revelation of the cross). I left the platform at 4am feeling renewed, feeling like I wanted to live righteously, feeling like I really could fast another 8 days. And why? The simplicity of singing and speaking the Word back to God. Truly the Word is living and active, it truly is our daily bread. I am so thankful that I get to prayer lead worship with the Word sets because it means I get to meditate with a bunch of other people on the Word and get my heart cleansed and my mind renewed. Plus I get to bring joy to the Lord because he loves my voice, plus I get to stand in the gap for a generation that do not know him.
All that to say, I like my job and I love the Word.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Where do the months go?
Yes that's right it's been another month since I last wrote. While I have two room mates who are very faithful in their blogging I am not, and I'm only writing now because I'm waiting for my sister to be on skype.
Speaking of Skype, it really is a gift to all people who live overseas from their families and friends. It's so great to be able to chat, call and see one another over the web, I think everyone should get it!
I've been thinking about holiness recently. I was reading Galations when it talks about how if we walk in the spirit then we wont fulfill the lusts of our flesh. Holiness is simple, we simply fellowship with the Holy Spirit. When we know what we are saying yes to then it's easier to say no. For example when we have a vision for holiness and gazing upon the throne of God then it's easier for us to say no to the inappropriate movie or the course joking. I think so much of the time we can focus on what we "can't" do anymore instead of the fruit that is produced by walking in the spirit - love, joy, peace and patience. Are you kidding me? That's amazing!!!
Some of our problem is that we don't really believe that God is more pleasurable, but holiness is more enjoyable because in God's presence there is fullness of joy. I want to be holy as he is holy and I want to be one who is pure in heart that I would see him.
That's my thought, probably till next month!
Speaking of Skype, it really is a gift to all people who live overseas from their families and friends. It's so great to be able to chat, call and see one another over the web, I think everyone should get it!
I've been thinking about holiness recently. I was reading Galations when it talks about how if we walk in the spirit then we wont fulfill the lusts of our flesh. Holiness is simple, we simply fellowship with the Holy Spirit. When we know what we are saying yes to then it's easier to say no. For example when we have a vision for holiness and gazing upon the throne of God then it's easier for us to say no to the inappropriate movie or the course joking. I think so much of the time we can focus on what we "can't" do anymore instead of the fruit that is produced by walking in the spirit - love, joy, peace and patience. Are you kidding me? That's amazing!!!
Some of our problem is that we don't really believe that God is more pleasurable, but holiness is more enjoyable because in God's presence there is fullness of joy. I want to be holy as he is holy and I want to be one who is pure in heart that I would see him.
That's my thought, probably till next month!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Another month gone by
I can't believe it's been a month since I last wrote. I don't want to be another person who started a blog but did not continue, so here I am typing away, when I know I need to get to bed soon.
The Spring interns left today, the new interns arrive the day after tomorrow, which means I have one day of not being a core leader. I'm finding I have reached the stage that core leading is just a way of life for me, it's strange to think of doing the night watch and not being involved in fire in the night because I have been since I got here and I have no plans to move on.
Speaking of moving on, I am now officially prayer leading seven worship with the Word sets a week, and I'm excited, a little nervous, but excited. I just agreed to do another two which is what brings me up to seven a week. I love Worship with the Word because it requires team work, humility, listening to others and the Holy Spirit and a commitment to go deep on the Word for it to work. I've found my heart become so alive in some of the scriptures we have been singing. I am excited for this season, I know it wont be for too long as other prayer leaders are being trained, but I think it will be fun however long it lasts. I love seeing where we go with the scripture and that I can prayer led the same verse three times in a week and we go to different places with each team.
I also love the Summer, it makes me happy, I was totally made for the day when the Lamb will be the light, I just wonder what the temperature will be
The Spring interns left today, the new interns arrive the day after tomorrow, which means I have one day of not being a core leader. I'm finding I have reached the stage that core leading is just a way of life for me, it's strange to think of doing the night watch and not being involved in fire in the night because I have been since I got here and I have no plans to move on.
Speaking of moving on, I am now officially prayer leading seven worship with the Word sets a week, and I'm excited, a little nervous, but excited. I just agreed to do another two which is what brings me up to seven a week. I love Worship with the Word because it requires team work, humility, listening to others and the Holy Spirit and a commitment to go deep on the Word for it to work. I've found my heart become so alive in some of the scriptures we have been singing. I am excited for this season, I know it wont be for too long as other prayer leaders are being trained, but I think it will be fun however long it lasts. I love seeing where we go with the scripture and that I can prayer led the same verse three times in a week and we go to different places with each team.
I also love the Summer, it makes me happy, I was totally made for the day when the Lamb will be the light, I just wonder what the temperature will be
Saturday, May 24, 2008
The beauty of silence
We live in the world that is full of noise and activity; at least we do in the west, and especially here in America.
Henri Nouman is his book "The way of the heart" talks about solitude and silence. He says we need to be silent before we can have anything to say(or something like that, it's not a direct quote). And I think he's right.
In a world of constant words how many of us have words that speak life into another person? We are so quick to speak that the fire the Lord puts within becomes a smoldering wick because we feel this unusual pressure to speak of things before their time, unlike Mary, the mother of Jesus, who pondered in her heart, we are quick to ponder out loud.
Perhaps one of the problems we face is not that we don't have the words or the communication skills but that the Word is not burning on the inside, we don't give it a chance. If I live as the Word says "slow to speak, quick to listen" I wonder if I will have something to say one day that pierces hearts.
That's when silence becomes our friend, to quieten not only the external noise but to quieten our souls within us, sometimes the loudest voices are the ones that go on in our heads and that is the joy of silence we become aware of the voices we are listening to that eventually we will be tuned to the one Voice.
His sheep do know his voice, I just wonder if we struggle hearing it because of the noise we surround ourselves with drowns it out.
That's my thought for the day, rather abstract and mystical for me, but a thought none the less
Henri Nouman is his book "The way of the heart" talks about solitude and silence. He says we need to be silent before we can have anything to say(or something like that, it's not a direct quote). And I think he's right.
In a world of constant words how many of us have words that speak life into another person? We are so quick to speak that the fire the Lord puts within becomes a smoldering wick because we feel this unusual pressure to speak of things before their time, unlike Mary, the mother of Jesus, who pondered in her heart, we are quick to ponder out loud.
Perhaps one of the problems we face is not that we don't have the words or the communication skills but that the Word is not burning on the inside, we don't give it a chance. If I live as the Word says "slow to speak, quick to listen" I wonder if I will have something to say one day that pierces hearts.
That's when silence becomes our friend, to quieten not only the external noise but to quieten our souls within us, sometimes the loudest voices are the ones that go on in our heads and that is the joy of silence we become aware of the voices we are listening to that eventually we will be tuned to the one Voice.
His sheep do know his voice, I just wonder if we struggle hearing it because of the noise we surround ourselves with drowns it out.
That's my thought for the day, rather abstract and mystical for me, but a thought none the less
Monday, May 19, 2008
There is a time for everything
Which means it's time for me to write a blog, I think it's pretty obvious that I'm not a very faithful blogger, I guess I need to get into the habit of it.
Anyway, the middle of May and finally the sun is coming out to play, if only it would stay in the 70's! But I'm thankful that it's warming up, it seems to have taken a while.
Well, my Daniel class is over, but I didn't study Daniel today, I normally do that Tuesday so I don't really have much to say presently, what I did do tonight was prayer lead the 10pm and 2am worship with the Word sets. Sunday is my prayer leading day as I do both sets so I'm pretty tired by 4am. One thing I'm constantly being reminded of as I prayer lead is there is nothing more powerful than the Word of God. I mean we can say cool things, and give context or whatever but there is nothing as powerful than the Word of God hitting the heart of a person, I mean it converts the soul, it gives light into darkness, it's a sword that divides soul and spirit. And his Words are Words of life and I want them written on my heart, which is why I enjoy prayer leading because it actually causes me to go deeper into the Word.
I think that's all I have for now
Anyway, the middle of May and finally the sun is coming out to play, if only it would stay in the 70's! But I'm thankful that it's warming up, it seems to have taken a while.
Well, my Daniel class is over, but I didn't study Daniel today, I normally do that Tuesday so I don't really have much to say presently, what I did do tonight was prayer lead the 10pm and 2am worship with the Word sets. Sunday is my prayer leading day as I do both sets so I'm pretty tired by 4am. One thing I'm constantly being reminded of as I prayer lead is there is nothing more powerful than the Word of God. I mean we can say cool things, and give context or whatever but there is nothing as powerful than the Word of God hitting the heart of a person, I mean it converts the soul, it gives light into darkness, it's a sword that divides soul and spirit. And his Words are Words of life and I want them written on my heart, which is why I enjoy prayer leading because it actually causes me to go deeper into the Word.
I think that's all I have for now
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